DISGUISE

terkadang aku merasa ingin terlihat sempurna di mata semua orang, tidak ingin kelemahanku diketahui oleh orang lain. walaupun aku tahu kalau di dunia ini tidak ada orang yang sempurna, tapi tetap saja ada rasa tercela kalau sampai kelemahan itu di ketahui orang lain.

kadang aku menganggap, setiap masalah yang datang padaku sebagai suatu kelemahan yang harus aku tutupi dan ku simpan sampai aku bisa menyelesaikannya. memang rasanya tidak mudah untuk menutupinya, berpura-pura tersenyum di depan semua orang padahal di dalam hati menangis.

bukannya aku tidak mempercayai orang yang ada di sekitar ku, hanya saja aku merasa kalau masalah itu bisa ku hadapi sendiri untuk apa meminta bantuan.

jika masalah datang padaku, aku hanya butuh waktu untuk menyendiri dan memikirkan apa yang harus aku lakukan untuk mengatasinya.

ada satu lagu yang sangat aku sukai, yang menurutku menggambarkan perasaan ku saat ini.

Lene Marlin-Disguise

Have you ever felt some kind of emptiness inside
You will never measure up, to those people you
Must be strong, can’t show them that you’re weak
Have you ever told someone something
That’s far from the truth
Let them know that you’re okay
Just to make them stop
All the wondering, and questions they may have

I’m okay, I really am now
Just needed some time, to figure things out
Not telling lies, I’ll be honest with you
Still we don’t know what’s yet to come

Have you ever seen your face,
In a mirror there’s a smile
But inside you’re just a mess,
You feel far from good
Need to hide, ‘cos they’d never understand
Have you ever had this wish, of being
Somewhere else
To let go of your disguise, all your worries too
And from that moment, then you see things clear

I’m okay, I really am now
Just needed some time, to figure things out
Not telling lies, I’ll be honest with you
Still we don’t know what’s yet to come

Are you waiting for the day
When your pain will disappear
When you know that it’s not true
What they say about you
You could not care less about the things
Surrounding you
Ignoring all the voices from the walls

I’m okay, I really am now
Just needed some time, to figure things out
Not telling lies, I’ll be honest with you
Still we don’t know what’s yet to come
I’m okay, I really am now
Just needed some time, to figure things out
Not telling lies, I’ll be honest with you
Still we don’t know what’s yet to come

Still we don’t know what’s yet to come
Still we don’t know what’s yet to come